Between Realities

In the dream, when everything is concealed by mist, secrets hide deep between the spiderweb thread and the dust on the windowpane…

To goth or not to goth

The craving for gothic jellies reached the zenith. I ordered the licorice ones supported by the anise gummi wings.

The gothic mood returns, this time sweeter than ever…

The Dawn and the Bird

The sun wakes me up, spilling light on a rain-stained world, biting with orange into old buildings. The night goes away, sinking into nothingness, with the promise of return on her lips. How much I love the moment between inky darkness and bright dawn. It gives me the strength to continue living and resisting the world.


Maybe that’s why I always get up very early … a bird that wants to see how the day is born, a little miracle in a dirty reality.

Licorice

I miss the time of the university …when the biggest problem was extorting myself from social gatherings, when gothic licorice gummies were in fashion, and me …me in black robes, with Type O Negative in headphones, standing off the path, reading Edgar Alan Poe and immensely in love …in love with the world, in what it can give me – in the future – and how much I liked my black boots and dark glasses.


For me, the university was what finally extinguished my joy of living among people. But as long as it lasted, as long as I was there, smelling the roses from the janitor’s garden, it was wonderful.


Maybe a gothic jelly will help? Only now the black ones have the flavor of forest fruits. Not as darkly romantic …but definitely delicious.

Like a witchling

I want to feel like a witch in Equinox, giving my soul to the night, fire burning, I dance with my sisters in craft, flowers on my head, the scent is engulfing, the moon shines above us, as we wildly seal our unity.

Give me the herbs, the candles and the rain in the darkness. Give me the fae faethers and magic that escape the understanding of the world.

I want to lose myself with the forest god, become one with nature.

… while my reality is a broken pipes, flooded home and the only hope is a walk in the forest near my house, which still feels like it was created for a witchling…

Remember

remember

the crystal beaches

when we were casting spells at night

bathing in the moonlight

summoning the muses

invoking the ancients

a beauty and a beast

in the harbor burried by past

conjuring the love

dreaming of darkness and light

I came to understand

I cleared my mind

but the spell still hangs in the air

I

will

always

remember

Wannabe

I want to use Dark Side of the Force.

I want to have double red lightsaber.

And I want my wrath to scorch the galaxies.

Child Sees Ghosts

Being a child makes everything look wider, bigger and deeper. Days are longer, a vast space between morning and night. Secrets are more fascinating, love is everlasting and inner fantasy gleams with unearthly light.

I was a child with fascination for everything unusual, and dark. And now I see how darker things were when I was 10. Now the things that seemed dark are barely grey. The depth tightened, making things I loved with almost unhealthy devotion, a source of simple joy and time killers.

I don’t know if to be sad or glad. More sad, I think. Because magic you experience as a child, will never, ever come back. You can recreate it, you can enjoy, you can even think that you love things as hearthly as in those years, but the real magic stayed in Narnia and Wonderland.

Or in the depths of the Realm of Leviathan.

The Soul in Eclipse

eclipsed sun of my soul

waiting for new beginning

the wounds are ashes

the scars are dust

arising anew, green-eyed and bewitched

stars still shine

lightening path, I wander

path I want to leave behind

the only way to freedom

The Spell

couldron swells with wicked brew

witches gather, witches murmur

ancient spell of blackest night

when gods ride the misty chariots

the curses, charms, all enchanted

wolves and ravens guide their words

count the bones

count the skulls

throw rosemary, for remembrance

give me thyme and give me saffron

hags change fates this night of black

the gods laugh

the world spins

a spell is forged from within

and the wild dance just begins